Depression and low self esteem are two of the most common things teens face in this generation. Personally, I don't think experiencing those things are evitable. I myself have gone through my share of that. When I was younger, I was really seriously obese. I was fat and I felt really ugly. I felt like I had no real friends. People often made fun of me and they often dislike getting caught scene being with me. I was that fat kid that people either made fun of face to face or made fun of behind her back.
I was so depressed to the point that I hated myself so much. I wanted to die. I hated how I looked. I hated my body. I felt like I had no rights to live because I wasn't the figure that society labeled fit. I was so insecure and had no confidence on how I looked. But I'd be lying if I said I had zero self confidence. I was confident about my talent in speaking in public and my other God given skills. I know, funny right? I was so insecure yet I had so much confidence talking to a public. I myself don't know why I had and still have that confidence. I guess God just blessed me by not making me 100% insecure.
How I got over that? Well it was a rather hard and long process. At first, I was just really depressed and felt like I had no hope in losing weight or looking good in general. But more on I gathered all the strength to lose weight because of this guy I used to like. And no this isn't one of those super cliche, I'll lose weight so he would like me. It was more on a revenge kind of thing.
Though as a child I would often deny liking someone. I kept telling people it was plainly impossible for me to ever like someone. Well, stating the obvious, I lied. I liked this guy a lot and we used to be close. But at some point stuff happened and he kept insulting me for my weight. It really wrecked me a lot. All the feelings I had for him turned into hate. I hated him so much that I just wanted him to eat every single word he said.
Ever since that day I had this goal of losing weight. I worked super hard and after a month or two I did reach my goal of losing a bit of weight. But you see, the revenge didn't turn out so perfect. He still kept insulting me. It hurt at first but somehow through time I grew this shield then became invincible to every single mean thing he says.
That happening didn't fully help me recover from my depression though. But this life changing event did. At some point after the whole weight goal reached, after like 6 months, I had to leave for another country. The thought devastated me at first but I had no choice but to leave.
There I had some time alone. Much like rehab but a home version of it. I got to know myself. Found security within myself and I talked to God more. It really did help me. I felt better about myself and slowly I lost all that depression. I just miraculously grew confident.
I realized that I shouldn't be insecure because no matter how I look, I'd always have a God that finds me perfect and a family that accepts me. If people can't accept me as I am, then that simply means they aren't worth it.
We should never waste our time in pleasing people. We aren't here to please them. We are here to find ourselves and find our happiness. Every single one of us are imperfectly perfect and we should be proud of what we are because that is what makes us who we are. We don't have to be like the people we see on TV, we just have to be us.
We don't have to become a copy of a famous person to be happy and perfect, how we are and just exactly how we are makes us unique and makes us special. We should be proud of what we are given. If you can't learn to love yourself, just know, there is someone out there who loves you more than the world itself.
Don't lose hope just because you get judged, all of us get judged. Those are basically obstacles in life which we need to overcome. To every single person that judges you, pity them. It just means they are more insecure than you are and they aren't happy with their lives. Because if they were, they wouldn't be wasting time ruining others lives.
Be happy and don't take revenge. Be the better person and don't mind whatever they say. Instead of fighting back, show them you are better than what they think you are.
Smile, stay strong and stay positive. Your happiness kills them haters.
Prove your greatness and make them eat your words.
Stand tall and stand proud :)
xoxo
Gee
(P.S: sorry if there are any grammatical errors. I didn't really proof read)
